I was reminded yesterday that I had this blog site.
It just shows how time can run away from you just as much as your memory does!
It is now 3 years since I last posted to this blog.
A lot has changed in my life.
I have moved house, changed jobs and become an Australian Citizen.
However, some things have not changed.
I still do not have any contact with my children.
They are now aged 22, 21, 18 and 17.
Old enough to have independence of thought coupled with the intelligence and compassion to reconnect?
Or so you might think.
I am met with a wall of silence and it breaks my heart.
It has now been almost 5 years since I last saw them.
The only glimmer of hope is that I have finally won important cases against the CSA and my Ex Wife.
Whilst this will not make any difference directly to the children (can I still call them that?), indirectly it should make them think that they have been lied to and that the truth has finally emerged.
Time will tell.
In the meantime, life moves on and the adventure continues.
Maybe I will update this blog more regularly in future!
Nick May 2013
- Cedar Creek, Queensland, Australia
- At the age of 40, I thought I was the luckiest man in England. I had been married to my childhood sweetheart for 15 years with 4 wonderful children that I doted on. I was self employed, making good money and living in a beautiful 500 year old farmhouse. We had great friends, great holidays then BOOM. My life imploded. My wife had an affair. A bitter divorce ensued. I was forced out of my home and out of my business. My Ex hired aggressive lawyers who cleaned me out financially. All in the space of a year. I was then offered a job on the other side of the world in Brisbane, Australia. Since then, I have started to rebuild my life and am happier than ever. I have remarried, discovered a wonderful country that I am proud to call home and am continuing to learn and become a better person. My new life has come at a price but I do not regret what I have done. I have always been a caring, loving Dad who is now alienated from my four teenage children because I did not behave as my ex-wife wanted me to behave. This blog describes reflections on life then, now and into the future. My blogs may be random but I hope they are not dull. Life isn't. It is what you make it.